Exactly a month from now, it'll be my last year on being in my 20s. Yes, I'm only 29 or I'm 29 already! If you think I look older, I'm planning to take anti-aging moisturizer na, promise. If you think I look younger naman, uy salamat. Saka na yung jacket ah, nasa pagawaan pa. Hehe.
Well, I don't have a particular wish for my birthday. I'm not even asking the jowabelles to come home on that exact date 'cause LB's birthday falls on the same month. I want him to be with her on her special day. I do have few 'material' wishes though but when I calculated the amount I might be spending on the girl's 5th simple birthday party at school, I changed my mind.
The more she grows taller, gets older; the more questions she has. That only means, tunay na tao na siya, bongga na ang memory bank niya. Haha! Last night pa and kaninang umaga, she asked me this: "What's Tatay coming home?" Translate ko ha: kelan daw dadating tatay niya. So I said I don't know yet. I didn't say, too that he will come home on her birthday. She might expect tapos we can't keep it, lagot ako. She knows though that I'm planning to give her a simple party at school. I already showed her the inspiration board, she was so happy! I'll show it to you, too soon. So my point is, I want my daughter to remember that her birthday should be celebrated in any way. It doesn't need to be grand every year, basta dapat may cake.
Teka, saan ba nanggagaling itong mga sinasabi ko? Kasi nung bata ako, isang party lang ang naaalala kong akin; the last birthday party I had before my father died. It was in 1992. I had Merced Bake Shop cake, Cabbage Patch Kids clothes and hotdogs with mallows Excalibur-ed in a pineapple. For an 8-year-old Bebeng, it was nothing but fab. The middle child was finally the star! Unfortunately, I didn't find any photos of that happy day. Good thing that I can still remember each scene vividly. Ang sarap balik-balikan. I can't blame Mama for not giving us parties on our birthdays. A widow with four children to feed --- I don't think I can ever manage if I were her. I guess that's why I never felt the need to celebrate my birthday. But don't worry muthers ha, I changed since my wisdom came to my life. I want her to help me make our Septembers memorable. In short, this cyber palace will have a party next month. What could it be? We will see. ♔