FYI: This is a long narrative. And this is a personal blog. You'll get bored if you don't care. So don't read.
Am I being an irresponsible parent? Earlier was LB's first school field trip; and unfortunately, we stayed home. I woke up late; 45 minutes after the assembly time. I never thought my phone's alarm won't work this time. Hey pink C3, I thought we're cool? You just failed me. Of all the days that it would have topak, bakit ngayon pa? Hay. Can't blame the phone though, she's two years old na and weathered storm (hinulog ni LB sa plangganang may nakababad) and bruises (naihulog at hinulog na ni LB ng maraming beses).
I texted the people I needed to talk to, moms who could relate: my sister N (with two school-aged boys), new-found mommy friend M and fellow army wife (now close friend) EM. N told me to still go, perhaps on the 2nd location; but I really felt miserable already and it's a big production number to commute from Marikina to Laguna --- in my state of mind. Another thing, that's another gastos. Better late than never? I don't effin' care about what others would say, I don't have the oomph to go anymore. I am not really a strong woman, you think? I don't know. M, on the other hand, was a devil's advocate; but I love how she deals with my mommy woes whenever we talk --- practical and no-nonsense. She told me that my trip fee should have been refunded. She has a 5-year-old boy who goes to a different school in Marikina City, so she basically knows those rules. Sigh. But according to her teacher, the organizer (I thought they were the organizer) said the collected money were already given to the respective locations. Kahit 25% lang ng total amount, hindi pwede eh hindi ko naman nagamit yung EK tickets namin? What if it was an emergency and not a lame excuse such as mine? Oh well, suffer the consequences and sulk in sorrow, mother! You're late and that's unforgivable. Boo. Then just like what I needed, EM empathized. Sad daw talaga and she felt guilty that we slept late 'cause we were still texting last night. I said it was not that. Kahit one hour lang tulog ko, basta nakapag-alarm ako, nagigising ako. The Baguio trip proved that: I woke up at 330ish in the morning because we needed to leave by 4. Iba lang yung dati na nagpa-rebook kami ng flight from CDO kasi late ako nagising (2007 and 2010, separate incidents). Hehe. Uy ha, hindi din naman nagising si Rhambo.
|Monster pimple = stress|
Now I am a bit sober and sour-graping; my argument with myself is that we could always go to Laguna naman, with Rhambo pa. But the feeling of going to a school field trip with her classmates --- that we can't give LB. There's still next year though, hindi na ako matutulog! Or tatlo na alarm ko para sigurado. Sana lang hindi na maalala ni LB itong yugto na 'to pagtanda niya. Ayokong maalala niya na ang shonga ng nanay niya. Pak.
Next time, I should trust my instinct. My instinct told me not to go na eh, pinilit ko pa. Sana pinangpakabit ko na lang ng cable yung pera --- same amount! Malamang mabaliw-baliw na naman sa Nick Jr., Disney Jr. at Cartoon Network 'tong isa. BUT. The letter said it's a school requirement (but they didn't say na non-refundable ang ibabayad, haha ang kulit ko). Sigh again. Ay siya, makakamove on din ako. Wait, galawin ko na kaya 'tong Jack Daniels ng asawa ko para makalimot? :p
But wait mudrabelles, do you think Enchanted Kingdom is age-appropriate for preschoolers? Enlighten me.